Our relationship officially started on September 9th 2025 and I still remember why I chose you. From the very beginning I was drawn to your kindness and the way you made me feel special. You were not just another person in my life you became my person. I remember how we used to support each other every single day. You once promised me that you would not let me feel sad or tired easily and that we would walk together slowly. Those words meant everything to me because they showed that you cared about my well being as much as your own.
Before I met you it had been 5 years since my last relationship. During those 5 years I tried to find love again but I never succeeded because I simply did not want to fall in love anymore. I talked to many girls whether they were far away or in the same city but after only one week I would delete them because I was already bored. In my very first relationship I was only 15 years old. It was the first time I felt attached to a girl but it ended after 4 months. I remember that I did not even fight to keep her. I just cried for a few days and then I forgot her.
I am not telling you this to compare you to her but to show you that since I am with you I feel real love inside me for the very first time. For the first time in my life I actually want to fight for someone and I refuse to give up. You broke the walls I built around my heart during those 5 years of being alone.
I miss the little things that made our daily life so beautiful. I miss receiving pictures of your meals every day and I miss the hours we spent playing video games together. We were so connected that we would constantly send each other videos on Instagram and Rednote sharing things that made us laugh or think of one another. We even started planning our future concretely by looking for hotels together for our trip. I worked so hard to save money because I wanted to see you. I even dreamed of welcoming you in my new apartment in Paris so we could finally walk hand in hand in the city.
To me you are more than a girlfriend you are my home and my family. Your presence in my life changed everything because you gave me a sense of belonging that I never had before. Even when we were thousands of kilometers apart I felt like I had my other half with me. Sharing my thoughts and my life with you was the most natural thing in the world. You took a part of my soul with you when you left because you were the one who understood me the most. I still believe that what we built through those photos games and plans is too precious to be thrown away.
Beyond our daily habits my feelings for you are deeper than anything I have ever felt before. Loving you felt like finally finding the piece of me that was missing. It was a love that made me want to be a better man and a better partner every day. Even during our darkest moments my heart never wavered because my love for you is not just a feeling it is a choice I make every morning when I wake up. When you are not here I feel a void that no one else can fill because you own a place in my heart that belongs only to you.
I am scared of how much I love you sometimes because it makes me vulnerable but I would rather feel this pain of missing you than never have known your love at all. You are my first thought when I open my eyes and my last thought before I fall asleep. I want you to know that my feelings are not just about the good times we had but about the person you are. I love your soul your mind and the way you see the world. No matter what happens between us those feelings will remain because you are engraved in my soul forever.
For the first time i understood what love means. You are my first love.